In some ways, this post has nothing to do with my seemingly abandoned theme for this Blog (The book of Genesis); and in other ways. it has everything to do with the Blog...
I have been wrestling with a lot of things today and lately; and I am well aware that i am not the only one; but still, in the midst of the storm one's own trials are always more apparent than those of others. My own battles are but common struggles; my solutions, are a little less common... Dreams vs Realities... Spiritual vs Terrestrial... God vs The Images Man Has Built of Him....
I know what I want out of both this life and the next... I know what He wants as i continually study the Scriptures and the Dreams He has placed in me... What I don't know is how to make this all happen or where to go that it become reality beyond a dream...
God keeps bringing Ecclesiastes 9 to mind for me...
"Go your way, eat your bread with joy, and drink your wine with a merry heart; for God now accepts your works. Let your garments be always white; and let your head lack no ointment. Live joyfully with the wife whom you love all the days of the life of your vanity, which he has given you under the sun, all the days of your vanity: for that is your portion in this life, and in your labor which you take under the sun."
"Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave, where you go."
"I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favor to men of skill; but time and chance happens to them all. For man also knows not his time: as the fishes that are taken in an evil net, and as the birds that are caught in the snare; so are the sons of men snared in an evil time, when it falls suddenly on them."
I feel often feel like I am sinking... with weights tied to my hands and feet.. fighting the loosing battle to bail out a sinking ship... and the battle ensues, "To fight for what I have dreamed... or to embrace the fate that circumstances have dealt unto me"...
But Nay... nay, I cannot accept this; for my God has brought me through such severe storms already! I cannot believe that this which pales in comparison shall be my undoing... there has to be another day on dry land, another day at sea, another day before I sail with Him upon that Crystal Sea...
And to the gods of this world and their prophets, I share in the testimony of Daniel, that his faith lift me in the absence of my own: "...we have no need to answer you in this matter. If that is the case, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us from your hand, O king. But if not, let it be known to you, O king, that we do not serve your gods, nor will we worship the gold image which you have set up...”
Though the Battle Rages On, the War has long since ended... I pray my strength not to fade before the sun doth rise again... I pray my life to blossom still and not be strangled by the thorns... I pray my faith like a Forest of Oak hold His ground against the armies of this 'eve... I pray the storm rage even more that when it settles and when its through when I stand against the moon, the morrow's sun reveal to all that in spite of all the greatest strivings of the devils, demons, and men against me... I pray that when the dust doth settle and the morrow's sun doth rise that His strength still flow through me as I lift my gaze to meet His eyes to give Him glory for the entire night...
All these things have happen all that's been done... has not been meant to break His son... and though "... It is Finished!... " has been sung, the Final trumpet has not yet rung... I pray that though I hunger and though I thirst... though I long and pray day after day... to see Thee come, to see Thy face... to live for You... to bask in Thy grace....
Matthew 6 ...
"Our Father in heaven,
Hallowed be Your name.
Your kingdom come.
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our debts,
As we forgive our debtors.
And do not lead us into temptation,
But deliver us from the evil one.
For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen"
And even if I live not to see the end of this storm on this 'eve... O, LORD, still my knee shall bend to You alone!... May Thy Will Be Done!...
